| The Real Her |♥

// Looking up Computer Science jobs.//

As a future fresh graduate, I don’t seem to qualify for any of them.
Austin Peay doesn’t bother giving tips on finding jobs/internships in your field. They didn’t even bother telling us about computer science certifications.
I’m just thinking what good is the degree I’m about to get? People still want you to have 3+ years experience in everything… Like where am I supposed to get that from if all the jobs require me to have some already?

If I hear one more person tell me I won’t have trouble finding a job because I’m in a field of computers, its going to take everything out of me not to pop them in the mouth.

It ain’t that easy homie. I’ma be FRESH outta school. My field makes NO difference in my chances of getting a job. Economy’s still bad, and companies still want you to be a seasoned genius before they consider hiring you.

Bet I’ma be one of these people with a degree on the wall in the house that I never use unless there’s an emergency. I’ma move on to something else if I can’t find a job by the time I have to start paying back loans. I ain’t got time to be broke all my life.

// 10 MORE DAYS UNTIL I LEAVE FOR SCHOOL.//

I must say, I can’t believe I’m supposed to graduate this spring. I almost think its some sort of trick.
Like, my advisor coulda been runnin game when he told me I was gonna make it out in 4 years. He’s Asian, you never know with them…

Kidding. But seriously. Wow man… I don’t know what I’m gonna do when school’s over! I get kinda nervous thinking about it. Seeing everybody else with a plan and me not knowing what to formulate one out of? Kinda scary. I don’t think high school prepared me very well.

It used to make me feel good when people tell me how smart I am and how I’ll do well once I graduate. I used to blush and whatnot like “Aww thanks!” But now, I’m like… it doesn’t really mean anything if I’m smart. If I don’t know what I’m supposed to do or how to get something, I’ll be working at Wal-Mart just like everybody who DIDN’T go to college. Plus I’m not that high above just because I make good grades. Sure I been makin Dean’s List… but by a little inch of a hair. There are plentyyy people way smarter than me, getting important corporate positions at Google and Apple.
Sometimes I think when graduation comes, as soon as the ceremony ends I’m gonna be standing in the middle of the room, alone, holding my CSCI Bachelor’s like “Now what?”

Maybe I’m thinking about it too much?

*cue encouraging words from my followers*